from David Zamora
Reading: Ps. 39; Num. 13:17-27; Lk. 13:18-21
How to make (godly) History
Have you ever faced the big question? (at least one of them). The question about the purpose of life, of your own life. Was it hard? Did it make you uncomfortable or anxious? It seems that we have a lot in common with David, the writer of today’s Psalm.
There could be a beautiful story, hiding behind Psalm 39. You can imagine a chief of state (David himself), remembering the highlights of his exceptional life: caring for the sheep, being anointed, taking care of certain giant, being chased by his father in law, appearing to be crazy (saliva coming down from his mouth and everything) … etc.
At the beginning of the psalm David tried to remain silent, but these meditations caused him profound feelings, such as that he ended up exploding before the Lord:
“ 4 O Lord, make me know my end and what is the measure of my days;
let me know how fleeting I am! 5 Behold, you have made my days a few handbreadths, and my lifetime is as nothing before you. Surely all mankind stands as a mere breath! Selah 6 Surely a man goes about as a shadow! Surely for nothing they are in turmoil; man heaps up wealth and does not know who will gather!”
David had an extraordinary life, yet he felt miserable and purposeless until the time when God, in his mercy, revealed him a hope that remains unchangeable:
“ And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in you.”
We spend too much time looking inside of ourselves for our own worthiness, we want to justify our existence through our deeds. Instead, we should spend this day looking for the manifold grace of the Lord in our life. All of those characteristics and situations that he has given us to reflect his love to a fallen world.
Finally, when intimidated for the giant task of showing the life of Christ to the people around us, when those old words begin to form in your mind (“Who am I?”), remember the answer of God to Moses “I will go with you”. Then you will be able to say with David: My hope Lord is in you.